This blog is going in a new direction.
I’ve decided I want to use Tumblr as a way to document something very personal and private to me. Even if no one reads my blog posts, I want it to be known that I suffer from intense social anxiety and depression. Maybe writing about my struggles will help them fade.
It’s very hard to be honest with anyone about this. My family and friends have no idea. I do a very good job of hiding my pain. I guess that’s why I feel a need to write about this on a public blog. I want to tell people, but it doesn’t feel right when I can’t connect on a deeper level with people. No one has ever been able to meet me on my emotional level, and that makes life very lonely.
I hope I can manage this disease better by writing about it. It would be better if I could talk to someone, but I can tell it will be a long time before I can do that.